i've written this post and deleted it...twice.

the glory of God has been revealed to me in my own mistakes. i have repeatedly screwed up, yet been incredibly blessed more times than i can count in the past year. i have an amazing life with family and friends that love me. regardless of the tough economy, and the lost job opportunities, i've been blessed with incredibly an supportive family and faculty which truly believe in me. so why do i not always believe in myself?

more importantly, why do i continue to sin after recognizing it? why do i think that i'm not strong enough to overcome my problem? no man is an island, nate.

perhaps this is another gift from God- the greatest flaw in the human design is that we can't make it through life alone.

i can't do this alone anymore.

good thing i'm not alone.

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i'm not sad because i can't write poems about you anymore.
it's not like you were my great muse
and i am now left forever unable to write another
beautiful
piece
of
poetry / witty haiku about U.
nah,
it's more like i'm stuck in between days.
i know that the next one,
the real muse,
will allow me to unleash something awesome-
some truly great stuff,
but until then i'm waiting.
tick.
tock.
tick.