04/22/10

"Honestly...like honestly, Nate....do you think I'm dating down?"


VOMIT


And you and everyone else wonders why I'm single.

"Seriously how are you single in Dallas? I feel like girls should be fighting for you."

Well they're not fighting but that doesn't mean that people aren't getting hurt.

In my experience, it doesn't get any better. I know that it can, and I believe that it will- but right now, I'm not going to exert myself to hurt myself- if you know what I'm saying.

Also, I'm not going to settle for chicks who say things like that....woof (or wolf - i say them the same)

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Keys to being successful at your job:

smile in the hallway
drive a nicer car than you can afford
be funny (present a funny presentation about a mildly controversial website)
empathize with the programmers
act like you're interested in nerdy things
flirt with the older single girls
(but never too much)
dress well
be on time (still working on this)
never let them know that you don't know what you're doing
BAM!
first million in the bank


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i see right through you, you know.
which, actually, i think you might like;
your guard has always been rather high.
unfortunately,
for both of us,
i don't play those games anymore.
so call me when it's less messy.
or maybe i'll call you when i've realized i don't care that much about the clean up.

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but seriously, since when has, "I can't believe you're still single in Dallas" been a compliment??

04.15.10

There's only one person I want to read this thing anymore and she is the last person I want to read this thing anymore.

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Coming home on a Thursday night,
my breath has the hint of hops-
like driving down I-35 right outside of Fort Worth on a Friday afternoon.

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Will I ever be as invested in a relationship again? Will I ever want to try that hard again- I mean, when I was actively trying (you know, the times when you weren't...at all)- if I know there's a chance I can fail?

I will never forget the look on the 5th-girl-who-tried-to-date-me's face.
"So basically that's why we can't date."
"Because we might break up in 5 years?"
"Well, there's a lot more to it then that....but yeah, basically."
*look on the 5th-girl-who-tried-to-date-me's face*
"I'll never forget that face"

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Is my resentment obvious to others?
Can they tell when I come in to a meeting late what I'm thinking?

"Oh hey guys, sorry I'm late."
"Aww don't worry about it, Nate. I can tell by that dumb look on your face you were just looking at your ex-girlfriend's twitter again."
"Haha ummm I don't know what you're talking about..."
"Yeah, don't worry about it, we've all been there."
"Shit."

Is that why I'm so good at looking up people on Facebook? Please don't tell me your name when I meet you. It will make it so much better for both of us. If I know your name I can facebook you. If I can facebook you I can see your political affiliation, your quotes, your music, etc. If I know all that then you're a goner. Never tell me your name. Just keep smiling at me in the hall so I can store you in some kind of file where I never think of you that much that I want to date you, but enough that I don't think I'm terrifying to look at when passed in the hall.

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The only thing that being married to someone's work got them was gobs and gobs of money.

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04.04.10

He is risen! Is there anything else to say?

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Lord help me to encourage others in their walk with you. Help me to seek, connect, guide, and support friends in their journeys. Help me to be more than myself for you, and help me to lay down myself for you. Keep my heart honest and my tongue and hands righteous. Forgive me for the plethora of mistakes I make everyday, but remind me that through grace, I am still accepted. Center me on the sacrifice. Amen.

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We are saved by the blood of the lamb.